My Jesse





I love a boy named Jesse
But Jesse doesn't love me back
He says he has a girl named Chelsea
He wants so much

I love him, I don’t know why. Sometimes I’m so stupid. I fell in love with a forbidden boy and I already know he’s not for me, he’s straight! but I can’t even get out of my mind when he hugs me between his strong arms like if there wouldn’t be anyone else more important in his life at that moment but me… and how my head finds the right place on his chest while my hands embrace his body and my ears listen to his heartbeat like if there wouldn’t be any other more heavenly moment but that one, as well as my heart prays for it to lasts forever…

I’m so stupid.


I love a boy named Jesse
But Jesse doesn’t love me back
He says he’s insecure about
What he feels or what he wants.

What he feels or what he wants


I know there’s no chance, I’m so stupid. I know he loves a girl, I know he likes girls, he’s not gay; he’s straight. Why the hell can’t I and my heart understand? I’m so stupid. But I find on him what I really like from boys, in all the plenty ways. The way he says “I want you, broth”, the way he smiles, the way he walks, the way he dances, the way he talks, the way he cries, the way he tickles on my tummy; the way he gently hits me on my back, showing me I’m a good friend for him; the way his arm lays on my shoulder like telling me we’re good friends… just good friends.

But everytime he smiles at me
I know we are the same
And that he'll change his world for me
If he just knew my name
There's no need for you to say you saw the life they chose for me... for me

Why me? Why he? Why us? Why no-other one but him? I don’t understand, sometimes I’m as stupid as I can’t even notice this huge difference between us. But every time his sight seeks for mine at the first moment of the day we’re on the same way, I realize he’s Heaven on earth. I would do anything for a chance, but I know it’s just impossible, simply impossible. I want to be with him forever, even if it’s just as good friends. I don’t want to loose him anyway. I don’t want to scare him away from me if I speak out what I really feel about him.

I love a boy named Jesse
But Jesse doesn't love me back
He wants to kiss and go to bed
But he doesn't want to talk

I love this boy, but I know he doesn’t love me back, at least, not in the way I’d be glad to be loved by from him. I know he loves a girl so much and he’s so secure about what he feels or what he wants. Oh heart! Please help me through this hard way; I’ve never experienced a feeling like this. I know it might sound odd, but I’m in love with a straight boy and I would do anything just to hear right from his lips… “I love you back”

I love a boy named Jesse
But Jesse doesn't love me back
He says his faith and all that stuff
Is only in my mind
Only in my mind
All I can hide
I'm doing fine

And every time he smiles at me I know he’s Heaven on earth. I was expecting someone like him, like the prince inside my mind, in all the plenty ways. I know I’ve seen his smile before, inside of my mind. I don’t know why, but I already knew him, in my dreams. The fact is that he’s not like me.

But everytime he smiles at me
I know we are the same
And that'll he'll he change his world for me
If he just knew my name
There's no need for you to say you saw the life they chose for me... for me

I know I may be crazy or mad. But I’m in love with him, with no chance to be loved back. Anyway, he’s my friend and we’ll be this way forever. I’ll just keep these wonderful moments when he looks through my eyes while they shine as two little stars that have come down from sky to shimmer on him along his life; I’ll keep these moments when he tenderly hugs me and then makes me feel secure and… loved; or even when he takes me by the hand like showing me the lane straight to happiness. These wonderful moments when he calls my name just to say “I love you, DEAR BROTH”

Please, don’t go!

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Anónimo dijo...

A ver Barbie... seguramente es el pendejito ese que me cae en la punta de los tanates, verdad??? sabia que te gustaba... soy un pendejo!

Qué bueno q se va a Canadá


lero lerooo

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